Follow your heart

Just to clarify before at the beginning of this post :

1. its not a break up syndrome post

2. its not specially posting for someone 

Well... i don't mean to tell the whole world that i've ended a relationship... having a single life then ask for recommendation of guys.. NO!! its just something i wanted to share to all of you.. if its happens to be similar to your current situation, i hope it does help.. 

Breaking up normally its gonna be sad, hurt, depressed, emotional, torturing and any other words you can think of especially when you still have feeling for your love one.. But when you knew it's kinda impossible for you to get back (at least at the moment being) you gotta learned to deal with it no matter how hard it gonna be.. 

And usually you will be telling or sharing what you feel or what you've been through to your friends.. And yes, they will definitely calm you down and telling you "GIVE UP!! MOVE ON" if the fact is really kind a hopeless already.. 

We can't deny that sometimes they were right, because they can see things clearer than you since they are not involving any emotional thoughts or memories.. Also, deeply in your heart you do agree with them as well.. 

However, what if you can't control your desire? as in.. you still wanted to try it out.. or you still care about what is he or she doing and stuff.. And on the other side, all of your friends and family are telling you not to get back.. What you will do? and what you should do?

At that moment being, all the recommendation you get from your friends sounds so easy for them to carry out.. If you ever been through this situation you will know how hard it is to let go someone you used to be so close to him or her..

Personally i really think that telling you friend is will really help because at least after you've shared the problem to others you will feel more relieve.. But somehow it doesn't work when you get back to home, being alone that time, all of the evil and pain come again..

Hence, in my situation and my opinion, i would said/recommend that do whatever you feel like doing it.. Like if you really couldn't let go then try whatever you can do save the relationship back.. No matter how embarrassing its gonna be or how fool you gonna behave.. okay.. it might sounds a little dump here.. but if you keep on constrain what you really feel, its gonna bring more hurts at the end of the day..

So why don't you try it out at least? okay.. even though you know how he or she insist in the decision, at least you tried without following other's suggestion.. And... even you knew that all you did only brings a greater hurt to yourself.. but at least you don't have to constrain the whole body and mind saying that stop seeing him or her.. Just follow your heart and feelings, if its doesn't work out, take the hurt generously to hurt yourself more.. So you can move on..

It might sounds weird to said hurt yourself more.. but isn't that true? since you can't let go then keep hurting yourself.. after a period of time of disappointment and depression you will be tired.. you will get used to the hurt..

But.. just once in the life.. you dont have to hurt yourself all the time.. trying out is just let you to experience it but not to practice it.. My personal experience.. hmm.. i will still did the same thing like what i've mentioned earlier but if you ask me will i did the same thing in the future if its happen in a similar situation.. i would said no.. Because.. we just.. have to grow wise... and do not let love or loved disguise your logic over and over again..

Jealousy "Enhanced Version"

A lot of things happened since the last post, like... really a lot..

Anyway, finally tons and tons of assignment is finally over.. Quite happy because all my effort and sleepless night has been paid off.. The only things to be focus now is EXAM!

But thats not the main thing of this post, just a little update... 

So.. The story goes...

If you have read my blog before, i did one post about Jealousy. In that post, i am writing in a perspective as I am the one who get jealous and talking about ways to avoid it.. 

So now i'm gonna share some of my experience in a perspective of the one that get jealous by others.. 

Refer to the previous one, it sounds really like a loser to jealous of someone else. If you switch the position, try to think of what's the one that being jealous by others will feel? Will he or she feel sad? or happy instead?

Its true that jealousy is really hard to avoid, but what can you actually gain from there?

Something happened recently to make me realize that how fool am I before to jealous someone else which probably the things doesn't even looks like what it is.. and often putting on a fight or having an emotional day due to jealousy.. 

At the mean time, think about the people around you.. Let say if you argue with your family or boyfriend because of jealousy, they gonna have a bad day either due to your stupidness.. So don't spoiled your day as well as other's..  

Since its the beginning of the new year now, we must grow wiser.. instead of finding ways to avoid jealousy, we resist it in the first place.. Why? Because it probably gonna make you looks stupid and weak.. 

Appreciate what you have even if its not perfect.. You will realize that.. Jealousy is really the most useless ingredient in your life..