Just a few hours left, we are steeping into a whole new year. I've never really done any new year resolution kind of thing but i guess a conclusion or summary about the past year is more significant. My mum used to said every year we will have different thoughts and perception towards life but i've never thought the changes of a year could be this huge.
If its had to use one word to describe my 2013, it would probably be "independent".
Since the beginning of the year, things start up tough. I still remember there was no water supply for weeks and at the same time i was so struggled for loosing a significant person. Things has gone even worst in the following month. I've done things that are absolutely unexpected and basically just loosing my mind. I am glad that Gin witness some of the terrible part, and now we can discuss how horrible it was.
At the same time, one family member has move out and the other move in. It creates a lots of problem in terms in living life style and it also creates a lots of argument between me and my mum. i still remember there was an argument happened at the night before my exam and that particular subject wasn't an easy one. Gladly, i still survived under that kind of pressure with flying colours. Wonder how i do it? Well.. i'm just keep telling myself that nothings gonna affect me from achieving what i want.
Lucky enough i always have some best friends and my cousin gin with me. Because going collapse and exhaustion is so common at that period of time.
Loosing that special someone and family isn't all. I've also need to adapt into the environment without my very close foundation friends. Though it wasn't that terrify as it sounds, but it wasn't really an easy one. Loosing my team for group assignment, i loose the confident of doing things well at the same time. Because regardless in work or life, they are people who always back me up whenever i needed. It feel exactly like a transfer student in high school where you need to adapt to many new things and make new friends.
Of course, life wouldn't be that sucks. I met new friends afterwards. Erm.. one word to describe? "Reliable" We were pretty much a perfect working partner as well as good friends. I really appreciate the way we distinguish things. I mean, we never text each other things that are not related to work, but when we met we can share many things. Unfortunately, things only last until October. I guess there is some misunderstanding between us, and no one want to take the first steps. Or.. there are many obstacles i suppose.
The fist half of the year was kind a sad but things change dramatically on my birthday and days afterwards. Though nothing really good happened but i guess its my mind set has turns really positive. Somethings really magical happened on my birthday, it didnt shows a good sign but i know it tells me to let go or stop being harsh on myself.
After June things has become really great especially in the month of July. It was literally the luckiest month throughout the entire year. Not only being lucky, but being aggressive and positive. I guess its all because through my birthday, i realise how many people does love me and all the friends that i had. it makes me feel that i am not alone in this tough journey.
Life pretty much back to the right track. Though at the beginning i seems to loose a lots of important person in my life, but in return, i gave myself a pretty satisfactory academic results. Don't you dare to said i've becoming a nerd. Haha.. just kidding.. but thats the kind of the only thing turn out good. As a student, i guess thats the best gift because its a reflection all of the hard work, efforts, time that we've invested.
Time pass really fast, a lot of moment i wonder how i can manage to go through all those suffering stuff like the endless exams, assignments and etc. Is a tough year but i saw opportunities. From the tears i heard laughter. This year, i learned that no one is gonna be the loser forever nor the forever winner. Its all about how much you want a thing and how you actually take action to achieve it. I had a dream that i never even dare to dream before. Hopefully its gonna happen on September 2014.
At the end of 2013, i conclude with a very simple sentence.
"There is always an excuse if you don't want; There is always a way if you want."
Happy new year everyone!
Thanks for reading any post from me even only one. Appreciate it.
See yon in 2014!! Have a good year everyone!
Best of luck!
