I've always wanted to leave this city, to look more, to explore greater things. I believe one must see how big the world in order to stay humble. Modest is always one of the character i lack of. Everything begins from just a dream, i am more than happy to said that its all about to happen in a few months ahead. But things never start easy. So much uncertainty and so much question. Most of the time i'm not alone, i have who i needed for guidance. Things is, answer can only be really assure after i happen to be at the place personally.
Part of this dream start from escape. Escape the current life, the people. For this reason, a small, peaceful lovely town will be the best place for me. No doubt, i love it. Old buildings, friendly people is all i always wanted. Certainly it give me less options, perhaps less opportunities? But at least it allow me to better refresh my mind and everything that i wish to figure out.
But dream is just a dream. It does bring you to a better place, but you have to be realistic either. Too much dreamy thingy, i'm afraid the moment you awake, there's noting you can cope with. In being a realistic matter, on the other words, it offers me a bigger city. Less quite, more people, more shops, and more clubs. No harm, at all. Its just that it might not really match with the intention. Just part of the intention.
I wish i could create a movie. Begin to wonder why i took business courses. Oh yea.. damn the reality. If i am a writer, director, i will be able to write two different endings as well as create two different life. I wish i could show whats the biggest different between this two options, i wish i could prove neither of this are a wrong decisions. Perhaps thats is why i am writing right now, creating.
Its a hard and massive decision to made. Not easy at all. Times, efforts, research. But it definitely building a greater path towards the future. Wonder how much decision does those corporate leader has to made in each day. Of course, thats less emotional and purely realistic. Human = Emotion?
As for now, about to reach 3 in the morning and going to work in a couple hours later = reality. So, i got to end this.
Good night and all the best.
