Follow your heart

Just to clarify before at the beginning of this post :

1. its not a break up syndrome post

2. its not specially posting for someone 

Well... i don't mean to tell the whole world that i've ended a relationship... having a single life then ask for recommendation of guys.. NO!! its just something i wanted to share to all of you.. if its happens to be similar to your current situation, i hope it does help.. 

Breaking up normally its gonna be sad, hurt, depressed, emotional, torturing and any other words you can think of especially when you still have feeling for your love one.. But when you knew it's kinda impossible for you to get back (at least at the moment being) you gotta learned to deal with it no matter how hard it gonna be.. 

And usually you will be telling or sharing what you feel or what you've been through to your friends.. And yes, they will definitely calm you down and telling you "GIVE UP!! MOVE ON" if the fact is really kind a hopeless already.. 

We can't deny that sometimes they were right, because they can see things clearer than you since they are not involving any emotional thoughts or memories.. Also, deeply in your heart you do agree with them as well.. 

However, what if you can't control your desire? as in.. you still wanted to try it out.. or you still care about what is he or she doing and stuff.. And on the other side, all of your friends and family are telling you not to get back.. What you will do? and what you should do?

At that moment being, all the recommendation you get from your friends sounds so easy for them to carry out.. If you ever been through this situation you will know how hard it is to let go someone you used to be so close to him or her..

Personally i really think that telling you friend is will really help because at least after you've shared the problem to others you will feel more relieve.. But somehow it doesn't work when you get back to home, being alone that time, all of the evil and pain come again..

Hence, in my situation and my opinion, i would said/recommend that do whatever you feel like doing it.. Like if you really couldn't let go then try whatever you can do save the relationship back.. No matter how embarrassing its gonna be or how fool you gonna behave.. okay.. it might sounds a little dump here.. but if you keep on constrain what you really feel, its gonna bring more hurts at the end of the day..

So why don't you try it out at least? okay.. even though you know how he or she insist in the decision, at least you tried without following other's suggestion.. And... even you knew that all you did only brings a greater hurt to yourself.. but at least you don't have to constrain the whole body and mind saying that stop seeing him or her.. Just follow your heart and feelings, if its doesn't work out, take the hurt generously to hurt yourself more.. So you can move on..

It might sounds weird to said hurt yourself more.. but isn't that true? since you can't let go then keep hurting yourself.. after a period of time of disappointment and depression you will be tired.. you will get used to the hurt..

But.. just once in the life.. you dont have to hurt yourself all the time.. trying out is just let you to experience it but not to practice it.. My personal experience.. hmm.. i will still did the same thing like what i've mentioned earlier but if you ask me will i did the same thing in the future if its happen in a similar situation.. i would said no.. Because.. we just.. have to grow wise... and do not let love or loved disguise your logic over and over again..

Jealousy "Enhanced Version"

A lot of things happened since the last post, like... really a lot..

Anyway, finally tons and tons of assignment is finally over.. Quite happy because all my effort and sleepless night has been paid off.. The only things to be focus now is EXAM!

But thats not the main thing of this post, just a little update... 

So.. The story goes...

If you have read my blog before, i did one post about Jealousy. In that post, i am writing in a perspective as I am the one who get jealous and talking about ways to avoid it.. 

So now i'm gonna share some of my experience in a perspective of the one that get jealous by others.. 

Refer to the previous one, it sounds really like a loser to jealous of someone else. If you switch the position, try to think of what's the one that being jealous by others will feel? Will he or she feel sad? or happy instead?

Its true that jealousy is really hard to avoid, but what can you actually gain from there?

Something happened recently to make me realize that how fool am I before to jealous someone else which probably the things doesn't even looks like what it is.. and often putting on a fight or having an emotional day due to jealousy.. 

At the mean time, think about the people around you.. Let say if you argue with your family or boyfriend because of jealousy, they gonna have a bad day either due to your stupidness.. So don't spoiled your day as well as other's..  

Since its the beginning of the new year now, we must grow wiser.. instead of finding ways to avoid jealousy, we resist it in the first place.. Why? Because it probably gonna make you looks stupid and weak.. 

Appreciate what you have even if its not perfect.. You will realize that.. Jealousy is really the most useless ingredient in your life.. 

Can only be brave

Ohai!! Its been a while since my last blog post.. Apologize for that because since back to college, I've turn really busy between works and study.. If you have read my past entry, you probably knew that i wasted a month of holiday to just stay at home doing nothing but yet when the first day of college (new sem) the person in charge called me and ask me to work.. wtf right.. i know..

Anyway.. its 2013 now!! Time flies.. A lot of things happened.. And i have the feelings that 2013 gonna be a tough year due to i have a lot of stuff to accomplish. The subjects in new semester is definitely harder than the previous one, all of them required a lot of reading which irritated me a lot!

So what drives me crazy to update blog is a song which i just knew like.. 2 or 3 days ago.. the lyrics is so beautiful, melody is awesome, or perhaps it suits the some of the situation in my life snd my friend's life now.. I've never try or think of recommend song in my blog but this song is really nice and i guess its not that popular in Malaysia.. I knew the singer for quite some time but i won't go and download his song accept for this one..

Its a Chinese song anyway.. 只能勇敢 by 萧煌奇..

The song is actually more towards relationship stuff.. like.. you can only be brave and learn relieve when something happened.. In my point of view, it doesn't only limits in relationship but in many aspects of life.. Life is unexpected, anything could happened.. people come and go, changes, feel helpless and stuff.. When things are under control and you've try to work on it but still failed.. only way to settle is be brave.. learn relieve (direct translate from the lyrics).. Let it go naturally..

Turning into 20 this year.. another stages of life.. Like what others used to said.. the elder you are, you'll met more worried or harassment.. Which is true because you became more capable in handling more stuff so of course you'll expose to more trouble..

Everyone have to go through some hard time for sure and perhaps not everyone are so lucky that he or she has friends to share during that sad period.. But you shouldn't blame your friends because everyone are very busy nowadays.. So.. believe that you can go through even if its alone.. 

 Hence.. listen to the song.. get the lyrics right.. Guarantee the 5 mins you invest will be worth!!

For those who can't read Chinese (yes I am referring to few of you) you can try google translate the lyrics. 

Last but not least, will try to blog more if I have time.. Cause assignments are killing me again.. But if you want to know more about me can follow me on twitter "@shinolophy" or instagram "shinolophy".. I am more active over there.. See ya.. 

The one week holiday Part 2

Part 2 basically nothing special.. Me and my family decided to go Desa Park City to look around and of course the main reason is to bring Terry for a walk. I guess many dogs would have appreciate this place a lot  because that's like one in a million where you can find a place that allowed bring pets. 

Desa Park City is once an abandoned quarry site, but now it transform to a beautiful place where community, public places and neighborhood conveniences converge to make residents everyday living special and rewarding. Living there is undeniably a blessing because everyone looks so healthy there which you can see they are people jogging, cycling, basketball, soccer, kite, picnic and what not.. The environment there could help every people to build up a healthy lifestyle as well as foster family. 

The picture are all taken by iPad.. Sorry for the super bad quality!

The picture below is actually a father playing basketball with his 2 little son.. They are located somewhere below the light.. The reason of taking this picture is... its really sweet to see a picture like that. Usually i will only see this in the TV.. 

So after the walk we leave Terry at Pet Shop over there for grooming and we went dinner at a Thai restaurant. Its called Soi Thai if i am not mistaken. Erm.. the advertisement board outside is really attracting so we choose this. Actually my mum does.. But the food its just normal, and the drinks its sort of expensive and it taste weird.. 

We ordered a dessert as well.. its... forgot what it called but is the sweet potato with some jack fruits. Its a little too sweet..So you might want to try other stuff when you go here..

Overall a fun day for both the people and the dog.. Strongly recommend people who have pets to come over here. =)

The one week holiday Part 1

Finally i am here to blogging about this. Getting busier these days. So, after a month of semester break, i got back to college for 3 days and here is another one week of holiday. Haha.. But i definitely spend my time wiser in  this week compare to the one month.

Well, basically i am just meeting few close friend and spend some quality time with them.

EVANGELINA BONG  (click into her blog)

High school mates. Its been a while since we last met and there are like a tons of things we need to update each other. So we went Levain to had brunch and just talk talk and talk. Nothing much i can said about her because mostly the content that we talked about is private! haha.. But she is having a pretty good life out there, i am happy for her. =)

Anyway, among all the outings this is definitely the one that has more chatting. We just hanging there for more than 4 hours talking non stop. Sometimes its really good to just do something like this, its relaxing and chilling. Even Eva said so. =D

Chicken Lasagna 

Some sort of sandwich served with potato wedges. Its really nice!! Strongly recommended!!  

The pretty~

The N group  (Click into Jutine's blog)

Another days that meeting Justine, Kaisin and the long lost friend Kok Xiao Qian!
Since Justine has been craving for Uncle Jang for such a long time, so we went there for lunch. I don't really like Korean food because.. i tried kimchi soup before and it just taste weird and tasteless for me. But Uncle Jang has totally change my mind after i tried it! i actually love it a lot!!

It look like this when it haven cooked. So a set contain cabbage, rice cake which is nian gao, chicken, sweet potato and... thats it! with the sauce.. It looks simple but its really yummy!!

The waiter will mix all the things for you.. so all you need to do is just sit there and eat. 

Please do not misunderstanding! I covered Justine face because she doesn't like how she looks in this picture but unfortunately this is the only pic i have.. Haha..

We went Setia Walk after that, only XQ went there before so she suggested this place for us to hanging around. Its a very very beautiful place!! I really love there because.. Its a combination of outdoor and indoor, i think they manage to build with this concept very well. 

This picture is in my camera cause some of the pic are taken by iPad, i wondering why all of us are looking at different place. HAHA.. I like this pic a lot! 

The long lost friend KXQ!

After a few hour of snapping picture out there, we went La Kaffa for a drinks! Never seen this brand before thou.. I think they are well known for coffee but i don't drink any coffee so i order Taro Milk Tea with Pudding (because the girl there recommended so) but it taste awful for me.. But what my friend ordered is quite nice anyway. 

So after all the nice picture where you see we were standing close to each other for pictures, this is what we actually did in fact!! 

iPhone

iPad

iPhone

All thanks to Apple!! lol.. Its just kidding.. i love Apple a lot!! You probably wondering whats the chicken or bird hand that KXQ is trying to act.. haha... i have no idea.. EPIC PIC OF THE DAY!

A little story : 

" So the special things that happened when i out with N group is i show them my very first song that i wrote, compose and  sing by me!!!! I was so nervous because my mum and sis always said i sounds sucks and noisy all those stuff but i got a really good feedback from them!! Not only 3 of them and my cousin YG as well! I am so so so so happy because.... i have been loving music for a very long time and now i finally had a little pieces of my own production and they said its NICE!! i am not trying to show off or what but i am being really grateful for 4 of them, for inspired me to be more confident of this song! THANK YOU!!!!! I will work hard on it and hopefully will be posing here in my blog one day! Thank you.. This song and the support from you guys meant a lot to me!"

If i am not working tomorrow I will definitely finish this post instead of separate this into Part 1 and 2. But i will complete it ASAP! Stay Tuned!! 

Puppy love story

A lot of people have been dreaming of having a really cute puppy or any other types of pet and naively think that life will become a lot more interesting with a pet. However, i am not claiming that raising pet is very stupid but i would said that its a really huge responsibility. 

If you have been follow my instagram, you probably knew that i have a really cute poodle and its name is TERRY!! Terry is a birthday gift for my sister, we have it for like.. 2 or 3 years ago.. My sister insist that she will do all the "babysitting" role and stuff.. but still ended up doing by me or mum most of the time.. 

So this is the picture him when he is still a little baby.. (i prefer to use the word he instead of it) So adorable, cute, fluffy, small, innocent and furry!! It looks exactly like a teddy bear that's why we call him TERRY which inspired from TEDDY.. 

So all along we having really good times with Terry.. he is being so alert and quaint.. Everybody love him! But as time passed, he grow, and this is where the night mare began if you didn't toilet train your puppy (especially for male puppy).. Basically he will pee everywhere, your bed, your couch, any corner, besides a dustbin and list go on..... 

Training a puppy is totally not an easy task because it required a lot of time, patient, and sometime you just have to be really cruel and mean. Which means if he did anything wrong you have to hit or beat him and you need him to actually feel the pain.. According to one of pet groomer, if the pet didn't feel the pain, he will knew that you were so kind and the next time he won't be afraid of you anymore.. But my family and me personally couldn't do this to TERRY because... we thought that its just so cold blooded... 

Look!! The puppy eyes! 

That's the thing that causes most of the people to take the wrong step of raising the pet.

When we were having dinner, Terry will jump up to the seats and staring at us showing the face that "give me some~~" and if we refuse, he will then sit like how a human does to "seduce" us. So when the pet tried human foods, he will then rebuff all the dog food..

Another night mare arise, we have to cooked twice every single day..buy the meat (chicken or pork) with some vegetables and rice.. Sometimes we steamed, sometimes we fried, or even porridge.. Its really time consuming and sarcasm where we don't even cook for our self that often.. 

So when you are thinking this family is working so hard for him... how good if i can be the dog.. NO!! 

Dog can't eat too much of rice for certain reason and when we cooked, we tend to put in a little but  of seasoning like salt or soy sauce to make it more delicious.. Another reason is Terry don't want to eat without any seasoning.. Then he "fast" for 2 days and eventually he vomit.. Still he don't want to take the food... So we got no choice.. 

But what we doing is actually try to murder him... T.T

After sometimes, he is really itchy all over his body and keep on biting himself.. So we bring him to the pet groomer shop and the ladies said Terry had sensitive skin already due to several reason. Undeniably the main reason is from food. 

Besides that, the long fur is all tie up especially at the butt there and when he feels uncomfortable he will go and bite and lick it there cause all those gems and what not.. I do spend some time everyday to help him to comb his fur but at the butt there he don't let people to touch it.. So when i try to help him, ended up being bitten seriously from him.. So all of us scare and leave it like this.. As time passed, problem occur.. 

Its a huge responsibility in raising a pet.. There is a list to make it looks simple.

i) Clean environment. Make sure the floor is clean always because they lie down or sleep at the floor most of the time.

ii) Shower at least twice or once a week. 

iii) Grooming at least twice a week to make sure the fingernail and many things are neat.

iv) Make sure the toilet or where they pee is always clean and change the newspaper often. 

v) Make sure they stay healthy.

vi)Clean the ears PROBABLY everyday.

vii)Remove the gum at the eyes everyday.

Important notes:

Shower with puppy required skill. You can't let water goes into their ear, eyes and nose. And when you done shower, you have to make sure you know how to clean the ear and eyes probably. Especially for the ear, you have to stuck your finger really deep into the ear because dogs have L-shape ear. So if you failed to do so, infection happened. 

You can bring your pet to all those pet saloon for shower but it doesn't means that it is the best way for them. According to my own experience, Terry actually infected by flea once because the pet shop have to deal with so many dogs everyday and you can't ensure that every dog are all clean and healthy.. 

There are also people that cooked salmon and broccoli for her pet and the pet has really shine and healthy fur. But don't you think its really pricey? Unless you are really rich and free, you can follow this way. But general speaking, avoid giving them human food including bread as well is the best way to keep them healthy. 

So this is the consequence now for my poor terry..

The groomer suggest us to keep the fur short for a while first. Terry has to eat dog food. Even if we insist of cooking only can steamed meat and vegetables, no fried no oil no seasoning at all.. 

When we bring Terry out or something, usually there will be a lot of people praising he is really cute and adorable but now they were like.. What happened?? Eiu... or showing off the scared face what so ever..

I am sure that Terry knew it.. Cause even me and my mum can't really accept it for the first sight.. but we have to.. But he is still cute as always.. 

Don't always look at the bright side of having a pet. Think twice before having a Life with you.. Make sure it can integrate with your family and please double confirm that you have that ability (Patient, Love & Time) to take good care of it.. 

Your pet has no one besides you, so treat them well and make sure you don't give up or abandon them besides the road!! That's is totally unethical!! 

Kind and Nice

Months ago, ABB has told us about a story of being "kind and nice" can actually change your whole life. Unfortunately i couldn't recall the story neither my friends.. That's why i didn't blog anything about it but the phrase "being kind and nice" is keep on linger in my mind..

Nice guy T-shirt

Today i can finally blog about it and i guess i totally get what is it really mean. When i first heard, i knew it is right but i couldn't feel how it will actually affect my life. But it actually does. 

Days ago i went to the admin center and ask some information regarding study abroad. So when i wanted to ask an Indian guy which i have met him before, he pass me to another person who usually deal with all this kind of matter.

So i asked is it possible for me to go to state if i were considering study abroad. The reason i ask is because the whole course that i am taking is UK based.

: "no, i don't encourage you to do so especially its for final year." (she answered) Because the system is  totally different and the subject might be different as well. 

: "aww.. ok.. what about Canada?"

: " Canada is running the same system based with US. So we wouldn't recommend you to do so"

: " But University of the Fraser Valley is one of the list in the partnership with APU, so i thought..."

: " Yes it is, but we don't recommend" 

: "alright.. thanks"

After that i wanted to ask about the PTPTN ((National Higher Education Fund Corporation) (t is responsible for giving study loans to students pursuing tertiary education in Malaysia) stuff and she pass me to another person. And the Indian guy were there as well. Anyway, the answer i got from the PTPTN guy is i have to call the office or visit them personally for more information. 

"alright.. thanks" (from me)

Then i was about to leave and the Indian guy follow me. He ask what the ladies told me just now? i said it is kinda impossible for me to abroad to the states and what not... 

Then he was just kind and nice enough to encourage me to find out myself. He suggest me that i can actually send email to the university that i looking for and work it out.. And he even explain to me that he doesn't mean to pass me to another person is just that the ladies is more familiar with these stuff. 

So the thing is, he is just an admin which he can totally ignore me and watch me left but why would he so concern on the result i got from others? I told him that going to States is my first choice and even though the whole office were kind a shot me down but he is the only one to ask me to try on myself and work things out.

If wasn't him, i would probably had a really really bad day.. but now at least he give me some hope.. i am being so grateful for his advice.. this is not the first time in fact.. i really appreciate it a lot even though we only met for less than 4 times?

Being nice to people can change their day.. And when you see people got your encouragement and being alive or hold faith again will make yourself happy either.. So don't be hesitate of being helpful, kind and nice..

You might ask... so how it actually affect your life? Is by treating others nice and kind as well. You will not only get happiness from others treating you nice but you will also feel the world is better when you treat others nice as well.

You might said i overdraw the picture but try it out!! Just start from little things like said Hi to the cashier or someone you really hate before.. Miracle will happen!! "ok.. a little exaggerated"

Being nice will lead you to a greater personal success!